Stepping Heavenward

2006-08-30

Hard To Get


The more people I meet, the more I love my cat.

My sister just came into my room for a quick chat and after giving her a brief run-through of something that had just happened while I was out, my moan was "Oh, I hate people!"

After she left I listened to a song off a CD that has just been loaned to me, and somehow those words really spoke out at me. It's not one of those songs that give pat answers to struggles in life, in fact it simply speaks about a man who also had hard times, questions, struggles and I guess he probably also felt a little like I do right now...a bit fed up with people :)

But a song written like this makes it so much more real, alive and personal.

I thought I'd share it, here it is:

Hard To Get

You who live in Heaven-hear the prayers of those of us who live on earth
Who are afraid of being left by those we love and
who get hardended by the hurt
Do You remember when you lived down here where we all scrape
To find the faith to ask for daily bread?
Did You forget about us after you had flown away?
Well, I memorised every word You said
Still I'm so scared I'm holding my breath
While You're up there playing hard to get

You who live in radiance-hear the prayers of those of us who live in skin
We have a love that's not as patient as Yours was-
but still we do love now and then
Did You ever know loneliness-did You ever know need?
Do You remember just how long a night can get
When you are barely holding on and your friends fall asleep
And don't see the blood that's running in your sweat?
Will those who mourn be left uncomforted
While you're up there playing hard to get?

I know You bore our sorrows
I know You feel our pain
I know that it would not hurt any less even if it could be explained
I know that I am only lashing out at the One who loves me most
And after I have figured this, somehow, all I really need to know is if

You who live in eternity hear the prayers of those of us who live in time
We can't see what's ahead and we cannot get free of what we've left behind
I'm reeling from these voices that keep screaming in my ears
All these words of shame and doubt, blame and regret
I can't see how You're leading me unless you led me here
Where I am lost enough to let myself be led
And so, You've been here all along, I guess
It's just your ways and you're just plain hard to get
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Yes...sometimes it seems like we struggle with the way God works. But I guess that's because His ways are so much higher than our own. One day it'll make sense. And one day I'll forget that I wished I could hibernate in a cave...

-Cel...already feeling more sparky :)